It’s true – and God’s been giving me opportunity after opportunity to develop the ability to delegate well.  I hope he continues to give me ample opportunities and still extends some grace my way.

Project Searchlight took place January 3-8.  It was a blast.  It was crazy busy and the preparation was super intense – but it all paid off.  According to the “higher-ups”, it was the biggest and best Project Searchlight the organization has ever put on!  I had help from some wonderful people who helped me plan it, coordinate speakers and activities, and even facilitate the event.  I couldn’t have done it without them.

However, I found myself still taking on too much.  For those of you who know me, you know that I’m a little OCD and a little anal.  I like things to be done in a certain way.  I fear giving control to others by delegating them a task because I know it probably isn’t going to end up the way that I want it to.  God taught me through Project Searchlight that I just have to let it go.

In all reality, there were a ton of things that fell through the cracks.  It’s all because I took too much on.  I was surrounded by incredible, intelligent, and fully capable staff and volunteers that I under utilized.  That’s not fair for them or me.

My actions had consequences.  I ruined a few relationships because of the lack of communication and the inability to do it all myself like I thought I could.  It’s a hard lesson for sure.  I’m super thankful for the willingness of the others at Project Searchlight to call me out in it – to not let me continue to be selfish.  I realized that my unwillingness to delegate makes people think that I think that I’m better than them.  That is definitely not my intention and after having that realization, I know it’s important to give people the control that I so desire and sacrifice how it makes me feel if they do something differently then I would have done it.

And that’s the point.  Just because they do it differently doesn’t mean they are doing it wrong. Now of course, there is the possibility that something is done poorly or incorrectly, but that’s life, and for that we have GRACE!  It’s tough – letting go.  It’s something that God is teaching me a lot about right now.  Letting go of the past, letting go of control, and definitely letting go of the timeline that I have for my life.

Don’t get me wrong, Project Searchlight was a huge success.  God blessed us with powerful times of worship, community, and growth.  I am so thankful for all the volunteers and speakers and everyone else who helped.  God blessed each person that came through the doors of that church because of your willingness to serve – so bravo!

Now that Project Searchlight is all wrapped up, I decided to end on a high note and will be passing the torch to someone else in the organization.  I’m starting a new job next week (still working at Adventures, just trying something a little different).  It’s gonna be wild, it’s gonna be fun.  More to come on that soon.